unpretty

why does everyone seem to be doing great in uni while only i'm convinced i'll be flunking out?

Tue, 07 Oct 2008 14:28:10 GMT

flunking out no matter how hard i try. 0_o

i'm a total disgrace.

frivolous things

Tue, 07 Oct 2008 05:12:51 GMT

was talking to jiaying last night about shopping and it totally made me feel like getting a new wallet too! =( i think guess and coach wallets are pretty pretty. omg! the prices are really steep to whatever i'm used to though haha (mainly cause i kope my mum's branded wallets ><) hmm.. but i need shopping therapy anyway! mid-terms have been AWFUL so far, i have a last paper to go CM1111 - Basis of inorganic chem. INORGANIC CHEM OMG.
The lecturer gives me a totally rudy lee vibe. Rudy Lee vibe meaning the "omg, i'm so glad if i see all of you fail my test because i am sadistic and i'll tell you all that it's is an easy test when in fact it's out of syllabus things." -.- rudy lee is a much nicer/better lecturer though. Joh yip just seems like the kind of lecturer who's happy when everyone's quiet (regardless if the quiet is due to people's attention or cause everyone fell asleep) 0_o ah well let's see how it goes tmr 0_o

On a totally unrelated note

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okay la not too bad

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like how i went boston this weekend for some conference

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and met wailumn there

jaime/life on replay says:

what kind of conference

jaime/life on replay says:

singaporean conference? XP

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yeah

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for the US scholars to like be updated on what's happening

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and remember tt we're pubic servants and whatnot

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*public

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omg

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hahaha

Free entertainment for today =D
name changed to protect the identity of the person (even though it's really obvious who it is =) but i said i'll blur out the name and i won't go back on my word =D

wheee

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 13:19:41 GMT

omgomg? i am officially able to drive on the roads without an L plate anymoreee =D
Lady luck was totally smiling on me today! (i got 2 points for sudden braking at a stop line when in fact i mixed up the accelerator and brake pedals in my nervousness so i zoomed forward instead of breaking and had to jam break!)
Ah well, screwed up my circuit but i PASSED! WITH ONLY 10 POINTS OMG! how pro is that =D
yepyep so pray you get my tester (who is like super nice) Mr Cha i think! SSDC! =D
=D ohh happy day!

bleak

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 14:17:05 GMT

My life looks bleak at the moment. Nothing seems to be going my way.
USP, dorm, concert, KL-genting trip..

I wished i never signed up for the concert. It's not like i'm enjoying the process anyway.. more like i'm forcing myself to go through it. But it's too late to back out now. i think i'll just go and get scolded by mrs ee this sat. And while my friends will be enjoying themselves in KL-genting, i'll be performing flower-less in nyco concert (nobody's there to watch me perform anyway)

blah i hate it.

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 06:23:48 GMT

*has abandoned livejournal for too long*

omg i'm broke! and sunburnt! and black! T.T and very little people have said that I look skinnier!
What's the point of running around in camp getting black if i don't get to lose any weight right?! XD

But anyways, camp was fun! =) but SOA was sadness!

Okay since someone has been bugging me, i shall just press the update button now! and maybe maybe get back to the subject of camp/ SOA if my job gets too boring!

birthday blues

Sat, 31 May 2008 15:55:11 GMT

the world does not revolve around you jaime.

so what if it's supposed to be your birthday on monday. it's just a normal day. don't expect it to be some magical perfect day.

blah. should have lower expectations and not treat it as a special day at all.

it's late at night, and i'm feeling down

Thu, 29 May 2008 15:48:16 GMT

Haha. I love used to like The Corrs. Must be the lateness of the night that's bring out my emo self again. BUT i shall not succumb! Shall relive CLSA FORUM 2008 to lift my spirits.

My aunt introduced me to this job (4 days last week), said it was really fun and i'll be paid mostly to eat and have fun so i thought. "i bet she's lying but i'll just give it a shot anyway!" But uhm .... she wasn't. HAHA.

Was posted to delegate registration with 2 other temps -- Jon Kao and Charlotte Wong! We spent the first day fighting each other trying to gain control of the scanner (cause we all have a secret wish to be a cashier at one point in our lives). Had to find tags, scan them and give delegates freebies! Which the two other cheapos koped on their 2nd day! The very guai me lost out because they gave out most of the freebies and i was left with measly scraps like CLSA poker cards and water bottles =(. So after meeting investors from Singapore and overseas, I have concluded that the late comers are mostly Singaporeans, who glare at you and make it seem like it;s YOUR fault that THEY didn't register and thus we didn't have their tag on hand and have to print it out. They keep saying, "can you hurry up, i'm late already. very late already you know" So being the paid temp staff i am, i bite back a comment about how it's THEIR fault for not coming early and registering, and tell them how apologetic i am and blah blah blah. But overall it was VERY fun doing it and bitching about the rude people afterwards haha!

And having the registration desk in the middle of 2 ongoing whole-day buffets is a temptation no one can resist! Forgot to mention that it was at MANDARIN ORIENTAL! So 5 star standard good food all day long XD. Food, friends, fun and facebook of course. Facebooking nonstop the whole day cause we had access to coms ~~to make ourselves look more professional~~ for registration stuff.

The highlight was definitely the 3rd night! Gala night! Party with free flow of alcoholic drinks omg? Drank tequila and really hated it. The other temps got really into it and drowned like 4 shots in 20 mins. Which ended with 1 person getting really plastered (who i and another girl had to send home in the end) hmm okay no more elaboration on my very traumatising experience. I think i told enough people already =x

oh well. main point is: i had a lot of fun and i hope i get to do it again next year! XD in the meantime! I shall look forward to CLSA temp outing this sat! =D wheee

a level results

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 15:48:25 GMT

fell short of expectations again.
finally bringing myself to somhow acknowledge my results. I've been in denial for a while, hoping that somehow i'll wake up and realise it's all a dream.
i guess my resulst aren't THAT horribly absmal but they aren't terribly good either. i just wish i did a little better.
was hoping that somehow i would be able to break out of the cycle that's been plaguing me since PSLE. watching others get their brilliant results while feeling that buzz of excitement and hope that i would somehow do as well as them. but it seems, even after getting into STP and working hard isn't enough.
maybe i'm, just not smart enough? i refuse to believe that it's true but it seems all evidence points otherwise

T_T help!

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 12:06:22 GMT

oh dear. i have an internship at SGH starting on the 25th of feb.. So now i have to find a replacement ( or 2 for shouhao as well) T_T. The job's getting better, obnly because now i'm talking to a nicer 'superior' who seems more reasonable ^^. Since posting results are coming out soon, the person should be getting WAY WAY WAY more than whatever i'm getting now! Interested please tell me =( i need helppp T_T.
Working hours are quite short! No brainer job ^^.

Promoting TI GCs.

10 -4 pm weekdays at JCs. $7 an hour plus commision *nods*. Since almost every J1 has to get a GC, the commision after i leave should be quite significant.. PLEASE HELP ME OUT HERE! T_T please refer friends of friends or something ^^ As long as they know like what the GC is >.< that should be fine.. it's not that hard a job! help? T_T

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 13:41:59 GMT

omg! i totally take the previous post back! the job sucks! T_T no amount of money will force me through 4 weeks of it! Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day or i'll have to sit through torture to force myself till payday (which better be soon, why haven't they asked me for my back account yet?! rrr. those procrastinators)

O level results out today

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 14:00:11 GMT

Hee my brother did better than I expected =^^=. (which isn't very much) But ah well! 3 distinctions! =D Could have done better for certain subjects but i shouldn't be complaining seeing he got 20 for his prelims >.<.
How w're all excited about which poly/course he'll take while i'm thinking of feburary 18/19 or something like that when we'll get back our As. =((
I hope positive thinking works because from now i'm going to practice it for my As ^^. (even though i can't really control whatever the results are anymore =x)

But anyways! Finally got a job! happy happy happy! It's until my internship starts.. But anybody interested in taking up a job that pays really well please ask meeeeee. It's promoting GCs at random schools... Cause it clashes with my internship.. =( i have to leave 2 weeks early so i need someone to take over from the last week of feb to second week of march i think! T_T it's quite a lot of moneyyy.

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 13:46:26 GMT

hmm that was a very entry. thus i deleted it. Please forget i every wrote that =x. Just for the record my dad can be annoying but i still love him *nods* (yea, no weird expressions when talking to my dad eugene XP, i'll beat you up) hee ^^

countdown, chalet

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 18:33:06 GMT

wow both start with Cs!
Heee, really glad to be part of two groups of people that i love so much! Countdown with class and class chalet the past week! Omg more Cs! Maybe it's just really early in the morning and i should be sleeping and i have no idea why i'm online so this is starting to look like a really long sentence with nonexistent punctuation.
Decided to stay overnight at wenqi's house on a whim but didn't end up sleeping anyway! Just talked the whole night and ending up losing my voice. usually i regain my voice back during the course of the next day but my voice is still a little hoarse till now.. hmmm. Even after taking the medicine from the doctor (which is labelled for "voice" btw, never knew they had such specific medicines!)
A lot of things happened i guess haha, watching chick flicks, truth or truth ^^. More fun than it would ever sound in words because that's the way it always is isnt it?

Missed the first day of class chalet because i was sick (good thing i missed it too, if not i would only be surviving on 2 hours sleep for 2 days and that means i wouldn't have been able to cycle from changi to beach road and back! 9 hours of cycling! My butt still aches.
Learnt how to play mahjong and got a good dose of beginners luck so i earned quite some money! (fake money, but still makes you feel good nonetheless!) Ate pizza, laughed at soon huat, cycled. Hm, doesn't seem like a lot of stuff here but whee i love my class! If i ever get down to it i shall blog more about the chalet because loads of things happened in between and i don't really want to forget it!=) For now it's good night i guess! ^^

Tue, 27 Nov 2007 16:23:33 GMT

ahhhhhh stupid stupid stupid =(

class stuff

Tue, 27 Nov 2007 15:16:35 GMT

love my class to bits. but still quite irritated about the after prom thing...
"ahh must take this opportunity cause Jaime never offers her house"
I feel quite offtended somehow. The only reason why i always don't offer my house is because i think of all the preparations my mum has to go through, (cause she likes being a gracious host) and she starts buying loads of snacks and works like crazy to clean the house and prepare loads of food, and then later she doesn't want my help and she cleans the whole place afterwards. I don't want her to go through that all the time (cause my brother always asks his friends over and they make such a mess). And that's the only reason.
And now since my parents have been so kind to offer the house after prom because we can't get a hotel room people have to say about the shower thing... Told my parents about peoples concern with the shower and they got quite upset, Me too actually. The reason is cause we only have 1 shower to let people use, and we don't want to be stingy or anything.. but we also don't see the point of showering. sigh. i hate it i hate it i hate it. I finally ask people over, first time in a kazillion years, and people complain? like omg? WE ARE NOT STINGY. ARGH.
and how do i tell people nicely not to come when they like? i mean i take hours to get ready so i don't like people around when i'm trying to get ready and i can't entertain them anyway. BUTAHH i think i'm an ungracious host. so unlike my parents bleh.
now i'm worried that my mum won't be able to sleep. I feel quite bad oh no oh no.
but anyways WE ARE NOT STINGY sigh.
i mean if you all want to complain then offer your house la omg.

okay oops. just quite frustrated now. >.< still love the class though. although i hate moments like these

for the person who claims to read my blog everyday

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 12:44:01 GMT

i think i should at least post something hapy =x. It's a little depressing seeing only suicidal posts on the blog >.<. Okay! So for anyone/everyone who is reading pray or hope for my grandma okaay! Can't believe i'm broadcasting this on my blog but hmmm really want more people to hope for her! Yeaaa she has cancer so uhmmm doctor is trying to decide if she can undergo surgery cause her heart's weak yep.
Anyway can't believe i was so caught up with results. Takes something like this to put everything into perspective =x.
Just going to do my best and try not to get sad over superficial stuff anymore. I'll be a more happy person! It's scary how many people today told me i look super scary when i'm emo. (okay so only 2 but it's quite a lot considering i didn't even bring it up at all =x)
Okay better get back to doing gp! Will mug hard and play hard!

sigh

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 13:18:24 GMT

*looks at overall grades and sighs*
when will i stop thinking that my grades define who i am.
what's the use of working so hard for the whole year and getting okay grades just for the 80% prelim to screw up your entire grades and pull you percentages way way way way down.

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 09:47:07 GMT

just kill me now.
i'm a waste of air and space

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 09:56:35 GMT

it's a terribly bad day today
life sucks

damn

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 15:04:26 GMT

some retard just posted the plot of harry potter 7 on his msn nick. damn it. *pissed off* to make it worse, he's right at the top of the msn list. i hope he burns in hell

anyway, good day cause co qing gong yan shall blog about it tmr ^^

omg she blogs!

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 14:10:12 GMT

okay i know it's been a kazillion years since i last blogged but i've been so hung up on co and stuff that i really didn't want to blog about it cause i know i'll just start typing illogical rants and cry halfway ^^".
But anyways, i miss co a lot a lot a lot a lot. Since p3 i've always had somewhere to go after school, but now all of a sudden i realize that it's MONDAY and i'm walking out of the school gates when the sun's still in the sky. It felt weird, like i was supposed to be somewhere else but i wasn't. >.< ah well. sadness. shan't go into details of how i feel about co cause i don't really want to face the fact that my last performance is finally over, that the next time i touch my dizi is another billion years away =(

i really really really miss co and GY and CAINA =(

too lazy to type in complete sentences

Fri, 01 Jun 2007 13:35:06 GMT

Feel dutybound to post something/anything on the last day of being 17 before i turn 18 tmr.
Not feeling all that great because
1) today didn't end the way i wanted it to
2) SAT tmr, in woodlands >.< yes i'm stupid, in woodlands. and when i say i didn't study for it, i didn't study
3) celebrating my cousin's 21st birthday tmr (meaning my relatives will all forget about me aha)
4) no co bbq tmr
5) i feel fat and ugly

No major events happening except
1) i cut my hair
2) i cut my hair
3) i cut my hair

so now for the first time since sec 1, my hair is short again. I kind of like it but ah well, everyone else is entitled to their own opinion i guess.

bleh
must be happy must be happy

very early celebration! =) I love gy and chuida XD

Mon, 21 May 2007 13:49:32 GMT

haha i shall pretend to be mature and not mention horrible things that happened today. Ah well, focus on the good stuff and life would be more enjoyable! And today was full of wonderful things!

First I took all 6 items today during pe =x. I was trying to come up with believable excuses to get myself exempted from napfa without having to really break a leg but then got forced into taking all 5 items and 2.4 run together anyway T_T. Wasn't as bad as I expected! I could actually do the sit ups, shuttle run and incline! =) Much better than what i was hoping for! And thanks to Mr Lock (sp?) I finished my 2.4 run without training for a super super long time =) Did have a very good first impression of him, but after he was so patient at the track (when i was the only one running) and him shouting encouraging comments and stuff, i made it! =) So i don't have to dread mondays anymore! XD

-and yay nice lunch break =)-

CO was unbelievable. Caina was trying to get me out of the room so that the rest of them could prepare my surprise present! And to think i snapped at her =( Ah! I feel so bad! Sorry caina! I love you XD
And uhmm came back after caina bought a slice of watermelon and was presented with TWO huge balloons! WIth messages written on them <3 And cake, and a birthday song, and a card, and a present... OMG Superly touched and happy and xingfu! I can't believe they actually did that for me... And especially when my birthday is still days away. But according to Chris Seah and QQ: "this is the last official practice for co for a while and your birthday is the nearest so we celebrate first lor." =D <3 Thanks to chris, qq, caina, jiangchuan, sp and everyone else ( who sang the song, wrote something, ate the cake blah blah). You really really made my day/ week =)
Actually i think i was quite stunned, to the extent that i couldn't really express how happy and touched i was, except to hug everyone in the vicinity... But really, I felt so loved today! Really really, thanks for everything =)

Even though my dad popped the red balloon =( but i'm going to treasure the blue one! It's now in my room on top of my bags so that it won't touched any pointy thing. AND i'm going to ensure that no one's throwing it away or popping it! If it deflates i'll just blow it up again! Spamming pictures of it on my cam to remind me of today =)

I believe that no matter how screwed up a day can get, all i have to do is look at the balloon and i'll feel much better... Just like today! XD

just thinking.

Wed, 16 May 2007 14:43:57 GMT

why is it that while i try to push my shedule around to suit you, i feel like i'm being pushed around to suit your's instead

omg how can i STILL be insanely happy?

Fri, 11 May 2007 15:02:07 GMT

there is so much more to life than just academics! I can't believe the happiness and spilled over from yesterday to today. Until now! =x maybe it's not only the GWH but also a lot of other things adding on to it!
Today's a great day! =DD
I love this feeling, and knowing that you've got tons of people celebrating with you just makes everything else perfect. =)